Thursday, October 20, 2005

The Gospel Applied At All Hours Of The Night




I recently got back from a trip to Naples FL. I was flown out to help lead worship in the mornings for a National Litigation Academy for Lawyers. Just Trevor and I went and one of the wives of a guy playing with us watched him in the mornings. It was filled with a lot of fun as well as some trials. One big one was that Trevor was up every couple hours at night. I felt like I had a newborn. Those of you who know us well know that Trevor's sleeping habits have been a constant struggle. These past few months we've resorted to making sure he's ok in his crib than leaving and letting him cry himself back to sleep. Well when you are at the Ritz Carlton, I know I didn't have it that bad, you will do just about anything to keep your child quite so that he won't wake the millionaires next door to you. I read this quote from Spurgeon the one morning:

"To look at Christ is to live; but for strength to serve him, you must eat what he provides. We work too often in a sense of unnecessary weakness because we neglect this perception of the Master. None of us need to put ourselves on a low diet; on the contrary, we should fatten ourselves in the Gospel so that we may derive strength from it and extend every power to it's limit."

Well I'm glad I read that early on because I began to fatten myself in the Gospel and it looked a little something like this.

2 am: Trevor- Up crying for the third time that night
Me: Why Lord? I just want to sleep! I think I might scream if it wasn't for the people in the walls next to me... no I'm going to fight off complaining and be thankful. Thank you Lord for the gift of a son! Thank you Lord that I can bring comfort to him! but wait- how am I going to function tomorrow? I'm so tired and weary! Turn you eyes to the Lord Tara. He has died for all your sins and meet your greatest need how much more will he meet your need for strength tomorrow. Cast all your cares on Him!

2:45- Trevor falls back asleep. I thank God!

4 am- Trevor up again crying for the fourth time...
Me- Seriously is there something wrong with my c hild. Why does it seem like every baby sleeps well but him? Will this ever end? Fight for faith- Tara God works all things for you good and he sees it as good for you to be up right now for the fourth time! Trust him- he is Good to you- you have eternal life with the Father. The joy of this truth is your strength!

5 am- Trevor falls back asleep

6 am- I wake for the day tired & weary but turn my eyes to
James 1:2 For I know the testing of the Lord produces steadfastness. And Let steadfastness have it's full effect, that you may be perfect and complete lacking nothing.
There is joy knowing that the gracious Lord will sanctify me in this trial. I will not fight it- Let your will be done in my life Lord. I submit myself under your Sovereign hand & will.

And so the routine went for five nights! But God was faithful and after it was all said and done Trevor has his first two teeth to show for it and I have grown in pursuit of Godliness! and for the latter I would do it all over again.

Unfortunately for Chris he had a trial of his own with Taylor while I was gone.

1 comment:

Naomiruth said...

thanks Tara for the practical application of the gospel. it's compelling. my struggles are very different, obviously, but the principle is the same. thanks.